i'm sick of seeing the same things day after day: school, study, work. school, study, work. and a coffee break here and there. everything is so routine.

i feel so...... lifeless.

?

insatiable desire for beauty.

...King of wonders, you know the way to my heart...

holy moly. being broken in so many ways at once. my heart and my head are in two different places. need to surrender, need to obey, need to pray. need my heart to change. pronto.

Here's what I've been missing for the past 3 months:

1. Good coffee WITHOUT the frantic studying.
2. wine tasting.
3. retail therapy.
4. cooking & serving brunch for family & friends.
5. going to a random hockey game. hahah
6. sleeping in. lounging. watching tv.
7. practicing photography.
8. much-needed pampering.
9. snowboarding.
10. leaving LA for a day. or two. or three. or forever.
11. 10+ years of catching up with a cousin.
12. mailing gifts to my baby niece and nephew.
13. vchatting with soulmates.
14. learning to love people.
15. grocery shopping at wholefood's/trader joe's.
16. baking, packaging, and sharing goodies made from scratch.
17. finishing a good book & watching movies.
18. loving on my small group girls.
19. international (and domestic) flights.
20. lunch dates with my sister.
21. spending time in a bookstore.
22. fine dining with the old roommates.
23. SC football games.
24. captivating love, overwhelming beauty.
25. peace.


November 6 cannot come any sooner.

God, they are so cute.

I love them.

emotionally, mentally, physically DRAINED.
it feels like everything is happening at once and i'm barely holding on to my sanity.
i want to stop thinking. just stop. breathe. take time to enjoy coffee with a friend. talk about life. talk about love. talk about God and all the crazy ways He's answering prayers left and right. talk about the small blessings. the big blessings. the unexpected blessings. the sin. brokenness. fear. insecurities.... everything. just get it off my chest. and. move. on. to greater glory.

greater glory, Lord. You promised.